8:36 p.m. - 2009-11-14
The clock. It's so damn loud.
I always wondered how I would feel once I knew he was gone for good. Its coming. Very soon. He's graduating soon.

And I just sat there. I'm going to have regrets in my life. I just hope I'll never have doubts.

What can I do? Write this stupid story? This novelette? These words that he will never read. I just want to meet him. Not just glimpse him, not just be in the same room at the same time. I want to be introduced. I want to have a conversation. I promise not to freak out. I promise to just act normal.

I DON'T WANT TO DIE ALONE AND A VIRGIN!